Love/Friendship/Confusion/Crush/Infatuation - or just Addiction

Dear Readers (if any) :D

I feel like posting something here, It had been a while since I have done so. - Been writing some tiny scribbles on my Facebook profile page from past few days.
Most of them concerning the occurrences of some recent events and life in general.
I leave further to your imaginations

(Since most of this is - About Luuuuuuuuvvvvv ....I am choosing this apt picture to support the boy girl thing that's happening to me and also which I am trying to paint in my words ) (PICTURE SOURCE)

To gently coax the night awake..

occurred some magic or someone just showed a trick...

Over the many lost evenings..

and things we shall never see...

My eyes don't even blink when you are in front of me

(II)

And then you cross my mind when I hear a name ...

similar to yours :)

I smile with closed eyes, all contented

as a sick person feels well, for no reason.

A rush of wind comes past me

As I'm swept beneath my feet.

and then you ask me with your naive anger, to explain the moment..while I live it with all my heart

(III)

I always tangled those 

stars in your hair to tie them safe

your gentle fingers

and sleepy eyes....

now

I have

sorrow that angels steal you in sleep from me

(IV)

When I look at your eyes I stop myself from crying

They are pristine pearls of loyalty in the fog of desolate

Walk away if u wish :) ... now it’s not me, not you. :)

if we now part, I shall find you again in my dreams

like a dry flower pressed against the pages of my diary..

(v)

summer’s breeze,Moonlight, orchid leaves found in the fall

That moment of tenderness when I stare at you, I find it all :)

You relive me from all pain

from all  times, I drenched in a one-sided rain :)

Every time we say good-bye ... I start to cry 

I confess that I don't mean it, But Promise that I shall try

(VI)

You are not suppose to measure

All these tears I shed for you as my treasure....

I scribbled your name and kept wiping it away

trying to suppress all the thoughts, that I kept feeling anyways....

When would u realize that the dreams one have in sleep

are not the ones he wants to possess, but those that he wants to keep

(VII)

He laid his heart, to faith and trust... to rise and fall... to magic of her smile

She reciprocated with doubt, leaving him to battle alone his fears

For him music of her tip toe walkaway still held a beautiful tune...

mesmerizingly engaging but incomplete feeling, like a full night without moon

(VIII)

In those unknown acts of infinite ignorance u end up controlling my mind

Its strange how I never wanna come close to u and keep standing behind

And when they met...

He just wanted her to know...... all that he so far had failed to show.

silently accepting the accusation of smelling her fragrance,

with shy eyes looking half into her eyes and half into setting sun, confessing...

" For me...Its just...

Its just you

No other hand, no other shoe"

(IX)

U remember Yesterday when we met

I was prior to that all so sad...

But then u came, smiling to the rescue

shiny as the tiny sea waves when they are striped by the sunlight

And all of a sudden the wind started to blew

Romancing with the heat, and setting me free in the process of doing so

(X)

I've been scared to be honest

Maybe it's fake

All these self- mockings and inner musings

For tomorrow a precious dream will be lost

Then, I look into your eyes, 

searching for to my confusion

and finding something fishy...

an unexpected bubble of love

(XI)

When feeling is not mutual wisdom will win us someday

What lingers is not demanding of love, but happiness - of your smile

Mean as I am... I still...

need you to wake up and kiss me goodnight.

Knowing so... that our...

soul is same even with different name

(XII)

In-spite of being fascinated by all these mind inciting enigmatic images

I chose to confine in the shadows of your simple soul

magic as it seems to be ... that my unspoken prayers

chose you for me

(XIII)

Like love never to be rekindled again.

It has no place to be, 

all places are filled.

I counted all the petals till there were none

and threw them away with an answer of No

She came - picked one from the floor and say yes

(XIV)

"beautiful face Precisely crafted by a painter divine

chin shiver half smile that can make all my rainbows shine"

"A pimple on honey cheeks that bothers your soul as it kills the perfection.

our eyes meet for an instant and I try to tell u - 'forget it', with all my affection"

I recall those moist eyes when u rest your face on the table

and that falling of hairs over them when you do so -- u look so adorable

(XV)

But why does it feel right if it is wrong

the unending urge to hold the rainbows in her eyes all along

The rain that was not suppose to spill on the rusty bars

and this shadow of moon betrayed when it made me fall for a star

Now birds flow backwards as the statues strangely weep

for the one I was to have for few moments, but not to keep :")

sitting now with her favorite dish in a lonely room

with no mouth to feed with care... but a filled spoon

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Inspiration for most of these had been primarily two things - a series of poetry reading late night sessions that I have had last month, covering most of the famous poetic verses ever written on Love. Secondly,It had been a girl - a pretty pretty girl. Enigmatic in her own simple ways, she continues to inspire me in small small things that she does.


PS -
I miss blogging. I miss life being a blogger, but I guess its been too hectic in the last patch and I would rather not post anything random here which I would feel is not upto the mark - Hence regular blog posts would come by here only if I would have dedicated time and attention to produce anything worthy.