Madness Of True Love

He – I loved with you ever honesty I could. You were the first girl of my life and will be my last one too! I know that society will find enough reasons to curse me tomorrow and say that The stupid Guy died for a girl, How foolish he was! They will infact label me as another Majnoo or something like that but their laughs on the face of my coffin don't make a difference to my will to die anymore, They are insane people who might never understand the continues pain of my heart which has made life worse then death! I suffer every passing night, mostly dreaming about the happy moments I shared ever since I met you!

When was the first time we met... class 10^th or something? 7 years have passed indeed dear! It was a long time of full faith and commitment na! I cannot actually be strong enough to witness the end of it this way so before you get married to him tomorrow night, I am wishing you happiness with all of my heart and as a parshaad to my lord, I am sending off my soul, foolish it sounds, But my mind is not in a state to make that judgment...

before I go away and rest in peace! I want to let you know that since the very day I saw you, I fell in love with you, and before that as well as from there on it was no other, Yeah! I use to tease you that you are not like Rani Mujherjee or Sonal chauhan or catherine Zeta jones at times but that was all sheer leg pullin to make you smile just once, I want you to always remember that a smile on your face was and had always been my first priority so forgive me for all those stupid fights that we went through, I kiss your feet in my dreams to apologize for the times when I hurt you! I promised you a lot and always showed signs that one day I will succeed in life but finally landed on as a failure, m sorry! I worked really hard on that book I wrote and I really have'nt ever been able to judge why it was never published and accepted by anyone whom I tried to show it too! Finally I am sorry to you that I was not an I.A.S , In fact I never gave that exam, Had I been that I would have surely been your groom. I have flushed that ring which I purchased from selling that articles of my blog too! I pray to god that we meet again next life and I make you wear that ring too, I now know that being honest,loyal, faithful and caring is not an eligibility to woo your family, all you have to be is be an I.A.S. And finally I am sorry that your good boy have drunk for the first time in life today but I promise its the last time too...

With ocean of love and universe of blessings...

(WHAMP!! A BULLET SHOT !! The boy falls on floor... his eyes are red! Not with blood, revenge or anger... But with Love! True true love! )

His last words were...

Tujhe khone ke baad jab jeene ki wajah na mili...
tere ghum mein marna hi mera muqaddar that shayad

Once I lost you, I found no other reason to live and accepted that..
may be just To die from in the bliss of your pain was my destiny.

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Her – I had always been and I am sure is still a reason for you to cry! I am a bride today but why do I still see your name in my mehandi, Its color is not even half as dark as what It was when 2 years back on Diwali night I secretly colored myself with mehandi of your name! I had been the tough and less emotional girl in our relationship but there is hardly a count of things that I always felt for you, but its just that you being a writer was able to express it while me being a lazy spoil girl always failed to do so.

You were and you will always be the person in my heart, I shouted the same things to my father but he never accepted it and I am bound to hands of fate for being a doll in the face of a bride! I don't exactly know why it happened with us! Its impossible to convince my mom that only you cannot eat in college canteen for days to buy a pendant for me, only you can stay awake for me for nights when I stop talkin to you, Only you can sing songs on phone just to make my failures light, only you can walk in a mall with your friends and never turn around at a girl cos you live in a dream of being with me all the time, only you can look in my eyes and smile the way you do, only you can write world's most flawless poems to describe the love that we share, only you can comfort me speaking the most absurd things on face, only you can understand the real soul of mine, Only you can keep me happy for forever...

The list to this only you... is actually endless! And tears are spoiling this page while I am penning it down! I don't know what comforts I will have being the wife of An I.A.S but All I know is that he can and no one else can too be You! You were, You are and you had always been different !! Thanks for letting me know and letting me grow of what I am today, Its all because of you! I also want to let you know.... that... You were the best human being, best poet, best philosopher, best friend and most helpful person that I ever met and off course the best best lover too in all senses! I actually don't wanna give a first taste of something that I owe to you so where ever you are, just take care of yourself honey, I am ending this fake and incomplete life of mine which was only complete being in the shadows your soul, in the heat of your arms, in the whispers of your verses! I am sorry that I was never able to tell my father that being with an I.A.S is not all that a girl desires! Being with you is something that only luckiest people get a hand at, I was luckiest and its better dying than losing that state!

I belong to you and will always belong you....

(WITH THIS SHE JUMPS FROM HER BALCONY! WHILE MID WAY TO DEATH SHE REMEMBERS THE DIMPLE ON HIS FACE, SHE WAS FOUND DEAD THE NEXT MORNING... STILL SMILING IN HER CORPSE! )

Her last words were...

Us maut mein bhi ek tohfe sa maza hai
jiske saath bas teri ek jhalak mil jaye

That death too is as joyful as A gift..
which promises a single sight of you!

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( PS - The last one in the series of DARK posts that started with alfaaz 5, I am an over emotional person, very very filmy the way my stories sound at time... but I write from the vision of life that I live in, Its my world, where true love and emotions are way way above priority to practical things! My pen lives in its own world which I admit sounds Unreal to most of you but It actually is not so unreal to my perceptions... a post on kajal's blog on a similar parting away topic was very realistic and I still love it as one of the best blog post I have ever read! uncomplete sentences have multiple ends, but as they say no story is complete till the end is positive... so the last pic shows their reunion in heaven! I am a hopeless over romantic creature...and I know my days are limited in this practical world, soon either I will be just one of them or get crushed... till that time I want to live in my fairy world of emotions)

(PPS - Jo mera ho nahi paayega Is Jahan mein kabhi... Run ban kar milunga Usko... Aasmaa mein kahin, Pyaar Dharti pe Farishton se Kiya nahi jaata, Khubsurat hai woh Itna saha nahi jaata... kaise Hum Khud ko rok lein... Raha nahi jaata )

Afterscript - I LOVE YOU! DONT EVER LEAVE ME...