Updates.Remembrance.

I had been running all this while and thus not been able to blog. I was at home for the holi holidays in Aligarh with Parents, what has been the most terrible and sad Holi of my life and for all of us. The reason being, death of a near one.

Festivities were on the full swing, in the evening and a party was On at our house, sevral fellow officers and collegues of my Father, along with their families were present. Phone calls of Holi wishes were buzzing every now and then. We called up Our Tauji's home, to wish dadi ma, and other members, Tauji, Taiji, My 2 cousin sisters there and the cousin brother Dhananjay Tiwari. It was a joyous mood at that end too, and laughters were shared on the long distance call at Banda from Aligarh for quite a while. Plans were discussed as to what shall be the schedule of fun at the wedding of the younger son of the house Dhananjay, which was to take place,somewhere later this year. After the call, my parents went back in the garden, where the party was on and guests were present.

About half an hour later, We received a call from Tauji that stated, Dhananjay have had a bike crash and and he had left us all forever. He supposedly died on the spot, in the terrible Bike to Bike accident, in which 3 of the four people, two on each bike that is, had fatal injuries. three have died till now and one is in the ICU after he was being reffered from Banda to Kanpur.

The Only support hand at home, after the elder brother of home, sanjay left to work in Lucknow 3 years back, Dhananjay have been the backbone of our parental house at Banda. The news Hit each of us, like a hard blow, whose effect still prevails. Loud sound of my mother's cries and the silent tears in my father's and brother's eyes took over the festivities of our home. We left then and there for Banda, in the first train we caught from Aligarh that night. This had been the first major family member loss that I have witnessed in my life, and I am unable to express or rather display the emotions that I am feeling ever since I heard the news of Bhaiya's death. Only god knows what Tauji, Taiji and Dadi Ma must have been going through within each of them. I am youngest at home, and I wish to say so much to so many of my family members, but I dont know why I am out of words and unable to phrase sentences that can help them reduce the pain. Sometimes god and its destiny is too cruel, I pray to god myself and hopes that each of u would pray for our family to god, to give us strength to overcome the loss and move on in life, a life that might never be the same for most of us.