Tuesday, December 29, 2009

A Tainted Mirth

Is love worthy enough - to occupy the place of motive, to overshadow the reason of cause, to conquer fear with flame, to win over terror with compassion? Sometimes it is.

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It was an ultra hectic Friday in the media firm encompassing VC's, deadlines,projection charts,negotiation with clients and slogging one's ass to the hilt. She left in a jiffy from the office, embroiled in her own thoughts ..proceeds to a metro station. Its a routine affair, inserts her pass in the automatic counter, usually..it opens up in a jiffy but today..some snag or something, made it fail to do so..enough to irk her out of her wits..fuck man! She is hot. Restless. Dressed in formals, shoulder length jet black hairs, a cute face and a professional outlook. Visually from a distance, one can easily interpret the expression of irritation on her face, she looks confused, inserting the card pass again on the scanner, It fails again. Fuck off, she yells.
A neatly dressed gentleman in blue shirt, black trousers, and a mufler covering the velvet leather jacker is standing just behind her ..in his seductively mushy voice,tells her to move a little back and then try..nopes not opening..he then takes the card from her..places at the designated point. Gate opens up, as if from a magic wand... he turns and bowls her out with a smile, his eyes were deep.
puzzled and annoyed she says a customary thank you embarrassed by instances which make her the laughing stock of the town at times...he is amused by her eccentric demeanor..

“Am! It sometimes happen”, she puffed, her hairs falling over her eyes loosely as she keeps her card back in her purse. there is something particularly catchy about her innocent eyes that fixes his gaze. He smiles back. In this stupid waste of time at the token insertion counter, she lost valuable minutes,courtesy to which she missed her train to dhohlakaun, where she was to be present to cover the research for a story, unaware, that a bigger story stood right in front of her.

The next train was to arrive 6 minutes later, and it was probably his smell,that first re-caught her attention. The kind of extrovert,she was, she approached him first,some formal introductory questions, a couple of twisted replies, tricky statements and puzzling phrases. This sapio sexual orientation girl was full of curiosity to knew more about him. She learned that this guy was also moving in the same direction. They boarded the same train. metro to CP to change tracks from there on. It was an incredible rush and they had to wrestle their way on board, while they battled the wave of departing passengers, this stranger held her hand,tightly and firmly,yet in a warm manner which shook her senses. In the train...amidst d poupourri of people pushing n shoveling..he acted as a security shield wrapping his hands around her waist as if protecting her from lecherous gawking,touching ,ogling of the present male bastion ..her garrulous,voluble nature n his patient listening.. constant yearning from mutual sides ..a far fetched closeness. They settled at a nearby shop for a coffee, Phone numbers were exchanged.
Spasmodic talking became a way of life..,she felt as if her long standing void is filled to the brim..was shuddering at the thought of overwhelming happiness, coz it has always eluded her..or was too short lived to sunk in her.
He was anyhow a loner, a Gujrat Born, Detroit living, with a past that had tragic demises of his parents, in a car crash in London..adept at everything ranging from cooking to carpeting to blogging to scuba diving..a perfect craftsman. she became a regular visitor to his Flat in an apartment in Delhi. At the brew was a Simon pure love sans ne lust..mentally intoxicated. she was an impulsive thinker,he was more analytical. They spent evenings, walking by, holding hands and talking and laughing. They met on 4 days in a week, only reason why rest 3 of the days were left was that he was out of town for some work, she Loved his company, his way of talking, his expression, his suggestions, his way of telling her...that she was a special friend. Months passed by and their friendship made way to move, stronger then they both expected it to be.

It was a Saturday and as usual, they met for dinner, at his place. Phone rang, He asked her to take the call, while he was using the microwave in kitchen.
“Hello?”
“Tell, Mr Allison...flat registry Bill is paid! No dues left, Focus on remaining work...”
“But who is Mr Allison”
... The phone was was disconnected!

Hey.. who is this Mr Allison, and why is your home papers issued from his name?, I thought this was your place...
"Eh! It is actually not..".he replied.
"means..." she asked further.
Means.. that not all questions have answers"
But some are not so complicated to be left unanswered, they are straight and simple"
Life is deceptive, complex of curves seems straight at times, its the frame of reference."
You have this knack of leaving people speechless... or is it just me...whom you can confuse..."
confusion is a remedy when bafflement is a motive"
and whats it when... motive is to win a heart..."
then... then...you got to confuse till you make her unable to draw conclusions..."
means...
Means... that not all questions have answers..." He laughed.
She smiled back.
I hope that beind your divine eyes, somewhere...is a loving world pure and honest..."
not even water that we drink and air that we breathe is pure, how on earth can you accept humans to be then... they are slaves that run on desires and passions... it is what drives them."

She hated him for saying so but in her voice, dont know how, this too sounded so so intimate. she leaned.
"I dont have words to carry on this any furthur". she smiled softly
"let me give you ...some of mine..." He whispered
They kissed.



The kiss was overpowering that they both reached the zenith of the unfathomable..the ecstasy was inexplicable joy knew no bounds and the resistance to temptation was reduced to zilch..true love gave way and thus the two flames were in unison...every moment was synonymous with the pleasurable agony burning since time immemorial..such a dichotomy..they were in a bliss.

The heat wasn't doused till d crack of a dawn but he had something to tell her....but he was unsure of how to put it in words and also unknown to the fact that he would never get a chance to actually tell her, who he was. destiny was ready to play game to the one who had himself spent his whole life playing games. games of lust. games of doubts. games of glory. games with secrets. This was to be his last one and the one who always win would lose.

she opened her eyes to find him missing on the bed.
she had a quick bath and dressed herself, just then...the door bell rang!

she opened the door. A guy came in from a courier service and delivered a briefcase. She was to leave for office, was already late, just as the delivery boy left. she picked up the briefcase and thought of putting it in the cupboard, it was full but she overlooked that and pushed it in, the door refused to close, she opened it to readjust, but the briefcase fell. It cracked and opened. What fell on floor from it, shook her senses. A 55 mm Mk gun, several FBI certified documents, fake IDs and passports, a Religiously looking testament that supplied his loyalty to his master. This was signed in Arab. There was an envelope that had pictures of him in Madrid, London and Mumbai railway stations and The last thing that came out of it was a map of Delhi Metro station... The same one at Rohini, where they first met.

A tear came rolling out of her eyes and settled at her cheek, she rested her palm on her head and sat down on floor, analyzing the strange questions and synopsizes that her Media trained brain passed on to her love laced blind heart. She stood up and took out her car keys, she locked the door and peeped in the bedroom whose bedsheet still told the story of last night. She recollected her strength and fought back tears and left the flat, in senses and with a motive. The motive was to find him and know the truth. She asked herself “Who is he”

after a 30 minutes drive, she reached Rohini metro station, it was not crowded. This helped her. He was there. She saw him, making way on the stairs towards the washroom, He was carrying a backpack. she followed. time came to a halt when the two gazes confronted each other. In her eyes, he saw a question. He dint had an answer to which. Eyes talked. He smiled with wet eyes as if telling her a story. She felt weak. He handed the a gun to her taking it out from her bag, which also carried a bomb...
such are travails of human life..he led a life on the trajectory of pains,miseries,mayhems,battling as a one man army..he wanted a heavenly end and this was the best he can vouch for..she gunning him down..perfect for achieving salvation for attaining bliss..the moment was coagulated by seemless overflow of tears by both sides..she could never do that...kill her own self no,not,nein..he was on her knees pleading..they embraced each other so tightly that they were reduced to a single entity..she was clogged in his arms ..passionate smooch followed which quenched their thirst and they were left gasping for more..time was a stumbling block and lo and behold after much coercion from him she took the gun and....



following day she was hogging the limelights..media frenzied to get her one sound byte..newspapers jostled to give her maximum coverage..she was the epicenter of the talks of the entire country..many accolades lined up for her..politicians,students,housewives,businessmen,reporters,hawkers..people from every walk of live singing ballads of her glory,her audaciousness..after all she,” A COMMONER killed a heinous terrorist during an encounter only she was witness to”..
she had lost all her senses..was bereft at her fate..the evanescent happiness again eluded her with a promise never to revoke back..they mistook her muteness for her downright gratitude towards her country..

his dead body and her image shared the front pages of newspapers ..adjacent to each other..they formed a lovely couple..!!

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(
Plot of This story is shared between me and HEENA SHARMA, A dear friend of mine, she has co-written this peice with me, :) A SRCC Alumuni, An involving conversationalist, she works for a leading Nationwide popular Media House)

( PS - We worked on it, exchanging mails and it was amazing to see, how the script, kept moving. This is a very different post to what I have feed my readers with in past and I am optimistic that most of you would like it. This is my 97 th post, and Now I am off for a brake, due to my end sems, I shall return on 10th january with the 98th,99th and 100th post :) The comments will be answered, as and when they arrive, so keep them coming :) stay safe, take care and god bless and wish you a very very happy and prosperous new year :) take care and enjoy)

( PPS - Mere haath mein, tera haanth ho, saari jannatein mere saath ho, tu jo paas ho, Fir kya ye jahan, tere pyaar mein, Ho jaun Fanaa, Mere dil mein teri saanson ko panah mil jaaye, Tere Ishq mein meri jaan, Fanaa ho jaaye...)

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Memories of Shimla


'Love Laced Winter Holidays in The Valley of Simla' - Contributed By - Arpita, My Lil soul sis!

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It still seems like a pleasant dream to me…my trip to Shimla in the winter of 2009. It has to be, undoubtedly, one of the best memories I have.



As I looked out the window of our car, I couldn’t help marveling at the scenery outside. No wonder nearly everyone I know had been to Shimla and loved it here.


A journey often comes with a story of its own. This journey surely had one. That day, the 21st of November, as I walked into the hotel room and collapsed onto bed, I wondered whether this trip would be as good, as I had hoped it to be. Little did I knew then that I had a huge surprise in store for me…

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Keeping a close eye on my little sister, I followed my parents into the dining hall. As we sank into the sofa and Ashley was immediately absorbed into watching a cartoon, my eyes fell on a corner of the room…and I kept gawking like an idiot.

There was a breathtaking, gorgeous idol of Lord Krishna, on a slightly raised platform. It looked so beautiful, I could hardly take my eyes off it. I was mesmerized. And it seemed like a wonderful coincidence that I happened to spot an idol of Krishna, of all the Gods I worship. I was elated.


Then someone broke into my thoughts with a, “ Pooja, tie up your hair. HOW many times do I have to tell you?!” Mum. Of course. I sighed. WHY do I have to tie up my hair, may I know? It’s not like I’m going to win a Nobel Prize for making my hair look tame. I dragged my feet to the table, sat down and tied my hair up before I could get another reminder. I sighed again when I heard Ashley squeal with excitement, out of the blue. What NOW?! I turned my head towards where she was pointing and OH.MY.GOD.

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This just HAS to happen to me. I saw my so-called best friend from school, Kajal, enter the dining hall with her family. As if I really needed any cause for humiliation, I found out that my unfairly stylish, perfectly dressed, Barbie doll-like friend would be staying in THIS VERY HOTEL ( of all places in the world) for as long as we were staying. Wonderful.



“Oh, this has GOT to be my lucky day,” I grumbled.

“I know! Isn’t it great? Now you have company!” said Mum.

People have completely lost their sense of sarcasm, if you ask me. Thankfully, she quickly interpreted my silence. Thank god my parents know me so well that it’s scary.

Ashley went back to watching Ben10, Dad and Kajal’s father started discussing world politics while my mum and aunty began talking about the shopping prospects at Mall Road. I greeted Kajal and her elder brother, Varun, with fake enthusiasm. I didn’t see why she should be so happy to see me when she never bothered to get in touch after school, except whenever she needed help with her boyfriend.

We made small talk through dinner and finally decided to go shopping together the next day. For the first time in my entire life, I wasn’t psyched about shopping. This just kept getting better and better.



On Sunday, our families met at the lobby and, of course, Kajal looked perfect. She and I hung back and walked behind the group as the conversation turned to her boyfriend for the seven hundred and twenty sixth time. Believe me, her entire life revolves around the sad dude.

Thankfully, retail therapy always works for me. So my mood lifted when I rushed into the nearest bookstore. Aaah…I know it sounds totally weird, but it smelled really good. While Kajal was having a look at the M & B’s, I was drooling near the Mario Puzo section. We are so different, it’s a miracle we get along quite well. I checked out some other books as well. I looked up from the book I was ( already ) reading called My Friend Sancho, when I heard a guy’s voice.

He looked a little older than I am, and was he drop-dead-gorgeous! He had this really calm and sophisticated aura about him. But that wasn’t exactly why I was fascinated by him. I was, because he’d asked for a copy of the Bhagwad Gita.

I eves-dropped on his conversation with the shopkeeper and heard him tell the guy that he’d given his own copy to his grandfather and that he wanted to get another for himself.

Now, I don’t know about you, but I definitely don’t find a lot of guys like this one. I was so overwhelmed that I didn’t even look away when he caught me staring at him. He smiled at me ( and my heart stopped) and then he left the store with his book in hand. I stood frozen ‘til I heard Kajal call me. I told her about the guy, nearly hopping on the spot. She asked me a string of questions about him till we joined our families at the local coffee shop. I thought about the guy all night and wished I could get to know him somehow. But that was nearly impossible.

The next day, we went sight-seeing at Kufri on horseback. The ‘rents were loving the cool breeze and warm sun and we were enjoying posing for pictures with a Python. Kajal was too scared to hold him so she sat at my feet while I wrapped the snake in my arms. I was having fun as it was, and to add to my joy, I saw the same guy walking our way!

I was so surprised, I nearly dropped the snake on Kajal. As its tail touched her shoulder, she jumped like a terrified rabbit and I burst out laughing. Better still, HE was laughing too!

Throughout our time at Kufri, I kept shooting glances at him. But I didn’t kid myself into believing that he’d actually be “interested” in me. I’m the kind of girl guys love being pals with. But I’m SO not girlfriend material. Before leaving, we decided to get something to eat. I was waiting in line when a guy came up to me and told me that his friend Mehul likes me and wants to be friends with me. HUH?! Where did THIS come from? I was sure this was some kind of a stupid joke-- or most probably a dare. I told him I wasn’t interested and that he could go and tell this Mehul that I said so. I didn’t say anything to Kajal. No need to embarrass myself when I was sure this was a prank.

That evening when Kajal and I were taking a walk near the hotel, another guy came to me and said the same damn thing. What was going ON here?! This was getting extremely annoying. Especially because Kajal was getting a real kick out of this. I sent the moron away and wished these guys would leave me in peace. I heard a phone ring, and while Kajal answered her boyfriend’s call ( yet again ) I looked in the direction the guy had called out to, and I stiffened.


He was talking to THAT guy. HE was Mehul


I felt my heart sink. I was sure he could see the extreme frustration and disappointment on my face. I couldn’t bare to stand there any longer. I told Kajal I was going to my room to pack my stuff. She nodded.

I nearly cried on my way up. I stood in the elevator with a morbid, defeated look on my face and kept staring at my feet. I didn’t even look up when the doors opened. So I nearly fainted when he said my name.

“ So you’re not scared of snakes?” said Mehul.

I cracked up. I couldn’t believe THIS was the first thing he’d thought of saying to me. That night, we sat in the lobby, chatting until it was time for dinner. I learnt that he too was in DU, that he was staying in Shimla for another two days, and that he’d found out my name from Kajal before talking to me. I was delighted to know that he lives in Delhi.



We exchanged phone numbers right then and promised to stay in touch, since I was to leave the next morning. I was happy to meet such an exceptional, chivalrous, SPIRITUAL guy. Before leaving for his hotel, he handed me a plastic bag which he’d been carrying with him. Mehul waved at me and left.

I opened the bag, and inside it was a copy of My Friend Sancho.


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(PS - One of the most beautiful Debut peice of Fiction, I have ever Read. This was a Guest Post. I prompted my Little sister to write on this theme before she left for Simla last month, and Look at her, This is what she came up with. OMG! I loved this. I wanted to share this with each one of you as a christmas present from my end. Dedicated to the author, I publish this work, with a vision, that this girl has an immense potential of narration and story telling skill. What is your take on it? Please do leave on a comment, If U read this peice :) Thank you! )

(PPS -
Aakaash mein, ho rahen hain ye kaise ishaare Kya, dekh kar, aaj hain itne khush hain yeh chaand taare... Kyon tum paraaye, dil mein samaaye, Ye baat kya hai, ye raaz kya hai, Koi hamein bataa de)


Monday, December 21, 2009

A Thing Beyond Forever - 3



School time love stories seldom last for lonf but, they leave you memories that never fade away, I too had one...


I met her at my home. she was my cousin sis's friend who introduced me to her, I found this girl beautiful and typical me, I thought of things to keep the conversation moving...so I cracked a joke. As usual nobody laughed. I felt stupid,and left the room and just as I did so, I heard a huge laugh roar behind my back! I smiled and went away then aftr 10 min I came back I opened orkut account . I asked sujata if she has one, she denied but told me that soon it might b come into existence. she looked cute in that pink dress and content of her words made no difference, she was being worth sitting with even when she was silent.

I got to know from my sister that she was commited. I was like...oh! why are u telling me this?
she said...cos I am your sister, she winked and left.
I said "get lost! Huh... I was not intrested other wise also..."
she whispered from a distance "You should have seen your eyes, when you talked to her"
I dont know why but I blushed hearing this, immediately I hated myself for doing so. Huh!


Me and Sujata became friends over the course of time, numbers were exchanged and long calls were made :) they were anyways intresting irrespective of what she talked about, her voice was beautiful just as she was.

we were young and I was optimistic. At 16, relationships are seldom meant to be forever and what I discovered about her negligiant crush/boy friend, I was sure, this wont last long. I am good at making such thesis, Luckily for me...one month later, she told me "She and her boy friend had a break up", I felt worthy of her trust and made her smile while she tried her best to sob more for the moron.

She was from different school, but so what? I was a man! Ha! I went to her school that day and waited for bell to ring. It was 2:30 pm . I was wearing black vest and half sleeves open shirt and jeans. She appeared to be coming out from the main gate, I walked towards a pillar and even she came next to me{other side of pillar} my sister was standing in front of me. I proposed her.

And she smiled and said ______ . MY sis said winked at her cutely and with her eyes she talked to her, perhaps to incite a verbal response……hundreds of students were watching us. She felt awkward. she looked cute. she said yes! I like you too...Four words at times can sound a zillion times of happiness! :)


Days passed on ….

She had an airtel connection and even I one, which I used to get recharged every day with 21 odd rupees making it a free network to network, utilising which we chatted whole night… but due to so many bullshit restrictions at her home, we never met. I spent days standing below her room, sitting on my cycle, while she stood on the balcony, from the panes of her room's she kept killing me with her cute smile. She was beautiful.


Every detail of our relation, from my end, was only known by saurabh, a close friend of school, who knew everthing about me and her, I had trust on him.. which was blind! literally blind and stupid also (now I think so)


MY dad got transferred,Our talks on phone became less, I was trying to cope with new and faster life here in NCR…

Saurabh use to call her and talk to her,Infact flirt with her and tell her a lot many crap about me, which was all untrue! shits! I felt stupid and kept wondering whats this, thats making things complicated between us. There were fights, misunderstandings and grumbling on phone. I reshaped the bricks of the puzzle and felt aghast by what I discovered. A deception by my best friend. I felt weak, the person with whom I was to find solution was actually the problem. I felt alone and weak and I hate to say this but I failed to make things work because I knew that I was being fooled about in friendship and I swear it hurts strangely when two male friends enter this scene for a girl and that too with such cheapish approach from one end. Sujata and me felt this communication gap widening and new problems occuring ever day and one day,she left me! We officially broke up. I knew who would be the happiest person, while I cried here and she cried there. At that age, one ought to think that life is over But it is not, it is too fast and makes it eventually move on with its flow. All I remember is that I cried more as I learnt more from this whole thing, "One should not trust people blindly", Life taught me this with a pinch of salt.. and with a loss of love!


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( Narrated to you in my writing, as was told to me by A very special younger soul brother)

PS - I am with parents, and having a gala time here :) The next two posts on my blog are ready which you readers shall get to read this weak and after that, I might take a break of 10 days for the end semester exams(shits! I hate them but its better then attending classes in my stupid college anyways) and then return on 10th january with 98,99 and 100th posts, which will feature guest authors which are not a part of blog world, but an eternal part of my life :)

PPS -
I don't feel any pain
A little fall of rain
Can hardly hurt me now
You're here, that's all I need to know
And you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close
And rain will make the flowers grow.

Friday, December 11, 2009

A Thing beyond forever - 1


DISCLAIMER - A work of Fiction. A Narration of reality.


I was not personally responsible for it alone. We both were great friends and I don't know, why and how it all happened.. I still miss her and I kind of have this feeling of hatred for her that if not removed would never help me to forget her. I know this. But still...

One day while I was surfing on my routine orkut stuff, I got this strange friendly introductory chats from her. She use to carry this pseudo hidden names and these hot display pics (which never defined what she was in real).. I visited her account and found out that we had one common friend, which was a beautiful girl whom I had met earlier that year and she had told me about her best friend sana whom she regarded as more beautiful then what she was. I accepted her friend request on those grounds and logged off as we were short of topics to talk.

Few months later we met in college from the same common friend. She was this brown colored hair, glowy skin, milky texture, soft hearted,warm muslim girl. The only thing that was not expected from her in my thoughts of her to be was the small flabs that made her a little fatty on her comparatively below average height. Disapproved of her over stated beauty by our common friend I got more friendly with her due to her garrulous cute and helping nature.

One day out of nowhere she called me up on my cell. The purpose of the call was to sort out a small spur between me and this common friend. “Tumhari and shona ki ladai ho gayi, luk jaan, this is not good, fighting and all in friendship is very bad jaan... Oh! By the way... jaan means good friend...he he he...”, I smiled on the other end of phone, hearing her sweet kido voice... and immediately we share small jokes and cracks... and became friends. She got my phone number from this common friend, and when two gals discuss about you and one of them gives your phone number to the other to settle your score with the first one, you do feel good.


Three months later, me and my friend and our friend sana were at my place for an evening coffe of my mum's hand. She told me that her emo pics on orkut and strange tagline names were to hide her existence on orkut from her family members as they are very conservative and might disregard her socializing with many people of different belongings. It was obvious to me that time that they don't know that sanu was here and I am to practice big time caution while calling her from next time. Whats new in that with girls anyways... they want you to abide by rules that they make in friendships that they choose and the same never holds for them. Three days in a row back to back, a call after 10-30 at my landline and my mom use to ask why does “Sana always calls.. so late”, I answered the question the third day, telling her clear that Her Abbu comes back late and then only she gets access to phone ( she picks her abbu's cell, chupke se...and calls me to discuss her day... I skipped this part), she calls me for studies purpose, she is a good girl belonging to a gud family and there is nothing fishy between us. From that day on...and till date, she is the most loved girl whenever my mum or dad see her in market or attends her call and that explanation strengthen our friendship at my home atleast. We met again, a couple of months later, this time it was more fun, all 3 of us, me and sana by the time had become close enough to share everything ranging from personal family talks to raunchy cheaper jokes. Sana was the first muslim girl whom I had become friend with and talking to her was all so different in so many things. She was blatantly rash, too trust giving and extremely open about so many things to me, which made me feel all so close to her. She had this belief that I am in love with our mutual friend and for some reason, which I never knew...she wished that we both get together some day. I don't know how the fuck she knew it.


Anyways... few months later we all met again, same place. Me and our mutual friend, though loved to spend time with each other by then, and had become very close on phone...never ever met without Sana around. And we knew that it was the three of us sitting together in my drawing room that created smiles around. We used to laugh for hours. We met once in 4-5 months but the wait was worth it and Sana had her limitations at home which we respected. She use to wear bright suits and I used to flirt with her all the while she was around, she use to laugh and looked beautiful in doing so. A feet of her rested on my knee, which she balanced to swing on chair continuously while I use to sit on bed, we ate in same plate, maggi everytime. She always tried to fix me up with our mutual friend, Unaware( or rather aware) that we already were...ssssh!


A few months later. It was Sana's birthday. We met, she introduced me to her Friends from other superior colleges and stronger background. For some reason I felt awkward and failed to get mixed up with their approach and ambiance. I left a bit early from the party and wrote a testimonial for Sana on orkut that day to tell her, how much her friendship meant to me and how cute a person she is and has always been. She didn't replied to it and to the messages I sent on phone. 7 days passed. We met. She told me she was busy. What? I said. You could have replied atleast the sms. We had a small fight. It got sorted, when I thought that one can be actually busy in life with important stuff. I never was. :D (vella me)

around 20 days later I got to know from somewhere that Sana had been busy with his friends whom I met on her birthday party and she is seeing one of them too. I dint understood, why she had hide that thing from me. I was... don't know! She dint messaged me for next 20 days and neither to our common friend. She was busy. She got busier in days to come. And then nearly disappeared. We seldom very rarely talked on phone, I use to complain of her absence, she fought back and never accepted, what she did accepted was that she was now committed and happy. I felt happy for her but...


time passed. We started talkin less. Then one day... we fought, for some reason...which had something to do with her lover. She shouted back to me for the first time. She dint called back the other day. I messaged her in angry tone, trying to incite a response that I was pissed off and wanted her to pamper me back to friendship like always. She Dint replied. I messaged her that I am sorry, lets forget. She dint replied. Two months passed by. I messaged her and tried to contact her to sort out but it all went in vain. We met one day accidentally. I tried stopping her on road, she kept walking with her some friend, I stopped her like an eve teaser and told her that I missed her and she was an awesome friend, and I am sorry if I hurt her. She smiled and left. She messaged me from home... to get lost from her life. I later knew that all this while, some other mutual friend of ours told her things about me which I once said in anger but never meant. She told me, she hated me and so does her boy friend. I told her, I will never call her or message her again, I dream and wished her to be a self dependent girl in life but our common friend told me that she is soon going to marry and wont pursue education further and she is not marrying the same person for whom she left our friendship, I have many questions to ask and suggestions to give to her but everyone wish me to stay quiet, including my heart...which miss her a lot.


PS - Insecurity, possesiveness and Involvement of Ego is the worst thing in any relation. Be it friendship, LOve or family. Eventually it becomes dull and cynical once these elements gets involved... "Gaanth agar lag jaaye toh phir, rishtey ho ya dori... laakh karein koshish, khulne mein... waqt toh lagta hai..."

another trilogy at my blog! wait for the next part. Gosh! I need some sleep...


PPS - Har mulaakat pe mehsoos yehi hota hai
Har mulaakat pe mehsoos yehi hota hai
Mujhse kuch teri nazar pooch rahi ho jaise



Saturday, December 5, 2009

Aphrodisiacal Confessions

DISCLAIMER - Dedicated to the spirit of a princess of December night, which is the enamored of all in my fantasies, and to the thought "It is love rather than sexual lust or unbridled sexuality if, in addition to the need or want involved, there is also some impulse to give pleasure to the person". Your liking and understanding of the post written below would solely depend on your understanding of the two literal inspirations from which it is drawn. It might happen that the verses may bounce as if ancient greek fed to british scholars!



Got a date, babe
With an angel
With a hot child of the city
Follow all your shadows in the night
Oh, somewhere, there's someone
When two hearts are beating as one
It's easy for two
It's so hard for one
- MODERN TALKING
(OST - PRINCESS OF THE NIGHT - PART 1)

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Tuscan sun is lying
to the breeze that
breathes down to cupidAlign Center

a wind of change
a river of might
a shallow of horror
engulfing thy sight

of whose delve
I breath away
escaping the shadows
abrades thy prey

into the darkness
of lust and misery
where sins are forums
of expressions and emery

unconditional agreements
are soon at course
they seem to be forever
running through desires force

I lay aside
and make room
for you to enter
deeper in me...
from the passage of wind
through the caves of sin
into the darker realities
where bitter truths
might be confessed
within sheets!




sssssssh! spoken a little too much... bas!

Post Script -
Oh, I'm waiting
In the darkness
Hesitating in the darkness
Follow all your shadows in the night
I'm feeling it's burning
The point of no return, babe
It's easy for two
Baby, it's so hard for one

Princess of the night
I'm drowning in the light
Princess of my dreams
'Cause fire I feeling

Princess of night
What have you done
Baby, I know our day will come
- MODERN TALKING (OST - PRINCESS OF THE NIGHT - PART 2)

PPS - This space haven't been updated for quite some time...and the comments have not been answered regularly from last few days. Courtesy for this was my fuckin lappy charger,which got some problems again and I was not able to use my lappy. I love you all. Missed u like hell.... there had been so many marriages that I had to attend lately that I am travelling a little too much to focus on fiction, but there is an intresting contest @ WL (http://weandwords.blogspot.com) ( louge) so hopefully I will churn out some fiction stories for those of you, who like reading them from my pen soon... :) I have so many thoughts within me that needs expression, but I lack that final touch of inspiration to start scribbling.... :(
anyways... the other important thing is that.... I am in my ninties(i.e. the count of post... so sooner or later, in days to come, PCIP will hit a century of posts... I am not sure, what special thing is to be provided to readers on that occassion, so please provide me with Ideas !! - Love n blessings - Regards -
PULKIT ( 7th Dec, 00:01)