A saturday @ Kannauj

(VEHICLE FOR THE DAY)

Saturday it was! Packed and preoccupied! Bhaiya came back home for the weekend break from his training In Lucknow and he was to visit the district where he has got his first posting as civil judge In Kannauj! :)(The only stop - Cold drink tak thandi nahi mili )

(Historical relics all along the road)

Now where exactly is kannauj, It is 84 kilometers from kanpur where we currently reside in!Kannauj is one among the most ancient place of India having rich archeological and cultural heritage, The ancient name of this place is Kanyakubja or Mahodya (as per Balmiki Ramayana, Mahabharat and Puran) later name kanyakubja was changed as Kannauj the present name of the District.Though I am not much into caste and all, But just sharing this info with you all As I knew about it today!
Kannauj was a famous and important city in the second century , The gupta empire was much evident there and still some temples of that time are present there!

(thats how it looks now so stop reading the history... It is history indeed)

Enough of this!
Must be getting bored reading this eh! But the more boring portion was what I faced and it is the journey from the road from my home to kannauj! There is something about my state, which surely is distinctive and yet constant, No matter wherever you go around the circumference of U.P. , you will find screwed roads and traffic jams along your way!

(Shivraj pur kasba - we need a bypass here for sure... 1 hour jam)

There were a little shower along our way and that helped us beat the heat but roadside atmosphere made sure that we dont have a healthy and cheerful journey! Bumps on the road made sure that the CD player of the car hangs the song many times and sound as if sonu nigam and udit naryan are being choked from throat, legs are still paining as I was not able to lift my foot of the clutch for few hours or so! If Mr kamal nath, the newly appointed minister is reading this then Sir please make sure there bypasses along the connecting roads of eastern UP before you end your term! As they seem to be the requirement of the hour!
Anyways! We reached State bank of India branch @ kannauj and My brother used his newly obtained ATM to extract his first pay :) that was a happy moment! I was glad to share the joy with him :)

(Our final destination)
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By the way Today a guest post by me was also published @ expressive silence On account of My dear sis Ms R's blog's completion of 100 posts! Read it here...
I am happy to be a part of her glory!!

very soon Even I am about to complete a smaller milestone! That is 50th post! I am wondering what I should do...
I am prone to life and the pen associated with it! I want to live it that way! More and more... in every passing breath! Lets see what destiny has in store for me on the other end! My future is uncertain!

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(PS –
Tu kyun hai itni bechain
jab tu hai meri aur main hun tera
na bita ansuon mein yun apni raina
meri aagosh mein hoga tera sawera!

Why are you so so worried?
You are mine and I am yours
So dont sleep in in midst of tears
In morning I will kiss away your fears!)

( I thought about you in the entire journey, Missed you and was so so worried for you)

(@ copyright - all pictures belong to me... I am learning how to use mobile camera without my hand shaking and spoiling the picture :P )

TWILIGHT & TWILIGHT - THE TIME HAS COME !! "welcome to my world"

There are 2 things That I deal within the same post! One is a movie and other is a song album!!

Its holiday time here and these days I am on my regular exploration of stuff That I miss while the hushed packed semesters are on!

I caught up with this flick called “Twilight” which was based on a novel By stephenie Meyer, The first one from the Twilight saga!

The protagonists of the film are Bella Swan and Edward Cullen, who are played by Kristen Stewart (for me she shows some resemblance to emma watson in terms of features and she is indeed a refreshing performer, Her work was good in the movie) and Robert Pattinson,( I loved him as cedric digorry In harry potter and the goblet of fire... wasnt his old hair style in that movie a far far better one ? , anyways he is kinda cool) respectively. The premise focuses on a teenage girl and a vampire who fall in love. The on screen chemistry of the pair was no less then a phenomena that stayed with me after it got over!

While searching for the soundtrack of this movie, Instead I accidentally reached another song “welcome to my world” from a music album called “TWILIGHT – THE TIME HAS COME”, It is a track under the genre of POWER METAL and artists are from ARGENTINA. I am yet to research more on this but this one has stumped me hard! Alternative electronic rock was out of playlist for quite some time and specially after I started listening to Linkin park A little less then what I used to a couple of years back!

This is a must try for every one who loves rock! The vocals are fabulous, Do give it a try and notice the piano work from 38 seconds to 56 in the track that gives a new meaning to the depth of the version!

Another place, a place full of hope
Were nobody lies, where angels can be your guide
So many times I tell to myself
Go there inside, follow the sign

You can be living here
Whithout sadness, full of love
You can be living here
Trust in me, you'll never be alone

Welcome to my world
A world of love
A world that is full of hope
Welcome to my world
A world of life
You can leave your shadows behind

Don't hide yourself, wipe away the tears
Look how your hands are becoming to wings
Here in my world you can leave all your fears
Tell me what you want I can give you anything

You can be living here
Whithout sadness, full of love
You can be living here
Trust in me, you'll never be alone

Welcome to my world
A world of love
A world that is full of hope
Welcome to my world
A world of life
You can leave your shadows behind

Welcome to my world
A world of love
A world that is full of hope
Welcome to my world
A world of life
You can leave your shadows behind

YOU CAN EXPLORE MORE ABOUT THEIR MUSIC AND THIS PARTICULAR ALBUM FROM ... HERE!

(Ps - do let me know what you felt about this track if Ur a rock music lover, M waiting for a response in the comment box)

When they lose... it hurts!

Wednesday, May 28! (2 am)... 2009

90 minutes and 55 seconds passed! A spectator on the ground shows a dummy trophy in the face of the camera @ ten sports... as the commentator says “thats not the real thing, but the real thing is heading towards the nou camp”. A dejected and frustrated viewer stands up from the couch and shuts the television set because he cannot see his beloved side loosing!

Wednesday, May 26! (1:54 am.)...1999

Commentator Clive Tyldesley asked: "Can Manchester United score? They always score!". 90 minutes and 36 seconds passed, Manchester united scored from the feet of Shiringham scored for Man United! 92:17. Solskjær scored again! Tyldesley again followed this with the exclamation, "Manchester United have reached the Promised Land." They won!

A 10 year old lad in his home was dancing after the completion of his first ever complete football match viewing experience and what a night it was for him! From that day on... if there had been one team that he had supported in club football with all the passion and spirit! Its been this!

Manchester United!!

Now you might have got some idea as to what led to his dejection last night!

His team lost! My team lost! He is me!

They were the defending champs this year and I was right there glued to my Tv screen to see them reach the top once again but Barcelona shattered my dreams along with the dreams of millions of red devils supporters like me!

I love football more then any other game and thats why I choose to write my first ever article dedicated to sports on it! I had been watching it for the past 10 years and played it for many years! Use to admire my childhood heroes ... 1. Gabriel batistuta (who played for Argentina... the national team I support). 2. Rudd Van nistelrooy ( used to play for Manchester United once and in that era I was a big fan of his) and then there is 3. Christian vieri ( an Italian player.. another favorite team of mine)

Its been so many years down the line, week in and week out I am a regular viewer of EPL (English premier league) whenever I get time and stays updated about various other leagues like Italian Serie A, German Bundesliga And Spanish Premira liga !!

I don't know what dint worked out for my champs last night! For me, It was Mr Ryan Giggs! Why was he given a start? His time is over! He lost the battle in the mid field clearly and the spectacular strike force was thus never actually Into play! While Xavi and Iniesta reached the peak of brilliance in the mid field, there was substituted scholls and superstar Christiano ronaldo losing their temper! They seemed to be a little too frustrated where it was not even required! They were outplayed by a team which was far far superior to them in terms of skills, composure and game play in the night!

They were the team in more possession of the ball, everything seemed to be working from their end while our studs like john O shea, and even substitute Berbatov lost ball like idiots! But from this lose if one lesson Manchester united needs to learn, I bet it is to retire Both Ryan Giggs and Paul scholls, I mean come on! They have had their best and they now in late thirties needs rest! They were magic at their age but you cant expect them to face the likes of henry, Eto and messi at this age and pace!

THEY NEED REST! I was sad so couldn't watch the final ceremony! But from next season, I will not be supporting Barcelona in the Spanish league against real Madrid! I Am waiting for next year when Manchester united knocks them out again just as they did many a times in the past! Hope my words reach our coach Sir Alex soon!

With the end of this post I had decided to put up a banner of me as a Manchester United fan in my side bar also! I am looking forward to write more shades of me in the near future here! :)

After a series of painful nights,With this match I found some rest! The end here too was painful but it helped me to forget the things that I had been thinking a lot lately :)

I went back to bed, ear phones are on! Music is a very honest friend! I tune in to radio...Jagjit singh mesmerizes me with the words “tere aane ki jab kharab mahke, teri khushboo se sara ghar mahke...” For a second as my last memory of last night I recollect, I thought about a very pretty face!

before I even noticed I was asleep! The precious sleep! It came late but it was calm and well needed! M glad I slept peacefully....

(PS - I have a little too many shades that I will ever be able to display ... Pulkit)

45. Hurt and Broken confessions!

Anjaani si in raahon mein...
jab bhi main ladkhadata hun
kyun khuda ki talaash mera
maksad ban jaata hai?

Saath hote hain humsafar hazzar
phir bhi ek nayi talaash
ke raaste pe kyun mera dil
phir nikal jaata hai...

jabki ye mujhko bhi hai ehsaas
ki duniya ka hai aks kuch aisa
ki dosti ka milna toh kismat walon
ke naseeb ki hai rehgujar

par kyun ye humsafar samajh nahi paate
ki dosti aur saharon ki paribhasha mein
bhi kuch antar hote hain aur aaj phir
umeedon ke sagar mein us kahsti ko....
koi mujhe bin liye paar lagata hai
kyun woh koi samajh nahi paata...
ki uske ek sahare se is chote se bhwandar
mein mujhko milta dilasa hai...

Sometimes you aspire for support from random strangers
IN life when you lose your reason in front of those
whom you refer as friends and relatives
and then you realize that no one... literally no one is bothered
about your talks, your phase your pain yourself... you!
And since you have decided that you wont rush to your friends
for support and the strength within you is tormentingly over
then where now you should head on?

NEVER EVER DISCLOSE YOUR WEAK SIDE

YOU WILL LOSE RESPECT ... IN FRONT OF THE PERSON WHOM U CHOOSE TO SHARE THINGS....

AS WELL AS U URSELF WILL SUBMIT TO MORE TEARS...

SOME PART OF YOU WILL FEEL INSULTED

SOME PART OF YOU WILL STILL STEER FOR A SHOULDER....

a support...

that you will never find!

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On this bright daylight of a sunny day
I close my eyes and take this deep breath!
Sit back on floor with hands joined to pray
and for single wish and that is death!
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(PS- felt as the most stupid person of the world while writing this and even more stupid while putting color in the font and write up... insane I am)

अल्फाज़ - 2 (Chandni Raatein)

(English Script)

Tu pass hai toh is raat ki chandni mein roshani hai
har sitara hai roshan har chirag mein loah thami hai!
Jo tu nahi saath toh chandni ka aksh bhi dhundla hai
Har sitara hai madham har chirag ke pass andhiyara hai!

Jin ishaaron pe jugnuaon se aati thi hansi is chehre pe
unhi ko dekh ke dukh se dub dubati hai ab aankhein
har aanso ke peehche bhi ek yaad ka kasoor hai
us yaad ke saath bhi juda tera aur sirf tera hi noor hai!

Phir aanson ke baad laut ti hai muskaan is chehre par
ek masoom se khwab ne akhir diya sahara hai
us khwab mein bhi tere hi saath ka nazara hai
Jagmagati chandni hai aur phir roshan har sitara hai!

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(Hindi alfaaz)

तू पास है तोह इस रात की चांदनी में रोशनी है
हर सितारा है रोशन हर चिराग में लोः थमी है!
जो तू नहीं साथ तोह चांदनी का अक्ष भी धुन्दला है
हर सितारा है मद्धम हर चिराग के पास अँधियारा है!

जिन इशारों पे जुगनुओं सी आती थी हंसी इस चेहरे पे
उन्ही को देख के दुःख से डूब डूबती है अब आँखें
हर आंसू के पीह्चे भी एक याद का कसूर है
उस याद के साथ भी जुड़ा तेरा और सिर्फ तेरा ही नूर है!

फिर आंसुओं के बाद लौट टी है मुस्कान इस चेहरे पर
एक मासूम से ख्वाब ने आखिर दिया सहारा है
उस ख्वाब में भी तेरे ही साथ का नज़ारा है
जगमगाती चांदनी है और फिर रोशन हर सितारा है!

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(My second attempt at hindi poetry here @ PCIP ( Poetic cries of interpersonal expressions... and carrying on with the same theme around which my life dwells these days... that is lonely nights)

Dont ever leave me.... please! Beg u....

(IMAGE SOURCE)

PERSONIFICATION

These lonely nights!
When the world sleeps,
in peace and delight...
I talk to this moonlight

I enchanter the lullaby
of this mighty moon
Trying meanwhile to wrap
myself In this dream's cocoon!


If this is a dream
then why Am I awake
I got to sleep right now
my pain would be at stake!

Cos In a few moments
the stars would take away
this only friend of mine.
Moonlight too would leave me astray!


Hard to face myself
harder to face you!
Leave my world of dreams
before your falseness flews!

Enough of your fake nests
your glow & shine is a cheat
You betray with false promises
and make me fall in your feet!

I hate you moonlight
but you are all I have!
In These lonely nights...
When the world sleeps!

YOU ARE MY WORLD MY HATE AND LOVE!
dedicated to the moonlight.... The cold rays of moon!

2:10 A.M. yet again sleepless night .... not any reason to moan but still missing the long lost pain...

Scribbles of the heart

I walk alone
In a wait
for you to return....

My friends wonder why
I cannot see...
That The gate I longed to open
Is now closed forever....

"phir shaam mein tanhaai jaagi...
phir yaad tum aa rahe ho...
phir jaan machalne lagi hain!
kyun mujhko tadpa rahe ho....
kyun mujhko tadpa rahe ho....

The darkness have swallowed
the moonlight
My sun is set without you...
It would never rise!

"is din mein yaadon k mele hain...
tum bin bahut hum akele hain....
Aa jao... laut kar tum... ye dil keh raha hai...

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I talk to you by my dreams
trying to figure out where was I wrong...
While they bury you deep...
Inside the calm of this land...
My happiness dies with you...
captured in closed wrist of your hand!
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"Tum Bin jiya jaaye kaise....
kaise jiye jaaye tum bin...
sadiyon se lambi hain raatein
sadiyon se lambe huye din..."

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While
I
read these
beautiful
lines dip in love...
I feel you right here lying on my shoulder...
lines dwell in love have found sense from the moment I saw you

THANKS FOR MAKING ME REALIZE WHAT ONE FEELS WHEN ONE IS IN LOVE!
Where ever you are...
whatever you do
I am here thinking of you!
may you get all that you desire
success reaches you whenever you aspire!
When I see you there erupts a flame
and I burn from the heat of that fire!!

Sometimes separation .... Is The end Of Love and Sometimes... It is the start.... You might be gone To The heavens above...
But I love you more then ever, This world is no less then hell without you.... now!
Thanks for all the dreams at night of yours that keeps me going!

Management of Life after The End of A relationship - (lifestyle article)

With the dawn of every relationship, comes a series of emotional loops. It is mostly a phase of great psychological despair, which though seems to be unavoidable can actually be reduced immensely in terms of the pain it causes us, once we are able to develop an understanding with the chain of events that take place with almost every break up.

With every relationship which preludes with a promise of honest and pure love, there comes a bunch of most fantacising dreams. These are the dreams of an everlasting forever love that the two individuals start to built. Whereas it is the mind of a young love which is foolish enough that it mostly fails to calculate the hardships and the stroma of the long journey that they are planning. As the time progresses, not all relationships make it to what they thought to be. And then the following chain of events follows:

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Firstly, we think that even though things have not been working lately, our parter will stay with us, after all there had been so much of intake of emotions from both ends that it seems impossible for all that to go in vain. Things will be fine very soon; the optimism of the love speaks to us.

Time passes on and the quarrals, misunderstandings and arguments never takes a stop. We shout, grumble and even reach the point of no communication. Yet we admit that we are commited more than ever to our parter and will get them back in our lives. We show anger, a bit of ego, then emotions, some begging and millions of private confessions in the end that we can’t live without our partner’s to them itself.

The pain takes a toll till this third stage where we start crying in lonely corners, regretting every move of ours that made us lose the one soul we loved the most. We spend nights thinking about each and every moment spent with that person but till this time we no longer call or talks to the person which is there in our mind all the while. Somehow and I must say very rightly, our self respect comes in between. At this phase many mutual friends and family members try to remove this distance but they not only fails in doing so but also causes maximum pain to both individuals. Uptill now we finally start admitting to this word called “break up”, we realize that things are and will no longer be the same again.

The final and the most painful phase are of the self frustration. Why it’s me? Why did that happened in my case? Is everyone laughing at me? Am I the one in pain while my ex is having a gala time? Why? These thoughts project us for a very dangerous phase of emotional stress and depression. We laugh too loudly with friends and cry even louder when in soltitude. We don’t share any bit of our troubles with anyone. We curse our ex alone and praise him in public. Sometimes we blame ourselves to our soul and sometimes Calles the other person a cheat, liar and ditcher.

Than all this agony is soon taken over by time which prooves to be the only healer and the other things that heips us to move on is our pursuit of career, a self love which is there in everone, a happiness that we get by smiling, friends and family that works harder than we expect to make us laugh, a satisfaction that we get by moving on and showing everyone that we can move, a great content that we get by showing our ex that you never were the reason to live.

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Those who fail to overcome all this and falls down before this final phase are the people who commit suicide for lovers, and becomes alcoholics and drug addictcs etc. these poor people fails to understand that the pain of broken love ends in this same manner evertime and even the pain that we get in the previous phases can we overcome much easily with the following steps:-

• Avoid any exaggregated emotional shouting and pubilc display of fights in the arguments at the initial quarrels.

• Never let the inner self belief fade within you when your partner lets you down.

• Always believe the fact that there was life and happiness before him and will also be after him.

• Forgive and forget. Never curse and critisize your partner in front of friends & never ask questions to yourself which blames your inner self respect.

• Always acknowledge the things that you learnt from this break up and appreciate the fact that you are a strong soul.

• Avoid the mutual friends for a while and don’t discuss and what and how's of the break up to any such common friend.

• Move on and don’t close all the doors for new friends and family members, neither seclude yourself in dark rooms nor close the aspect of any fun in you life.

• Take things maturely, realize the importance of career pursuits and never let your focus loose. Move with the practical objective that career and self happiness comes first.

• Do things that you always loved to do, occupy your self and try to have as much fun when you are alone as you have when in company.

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Life has endless opportunities. One fail relationship has many reasons behind it and at times it has no reason behind the break up. Sometimes break up is just an event which was to take place and thus it took place, so stop analysing it now. Move on and keep smiling in the long run of life. Stop looking for traits of past love in the new people that enters your life. Close the chapters that gives you pain and realize the old saying that self love is the first and formost love don’t ever spoil your life. Always win your self anger with self love, self sin with self virtues and dilusive lies with bitter but honest truths of life.

(It was written by me long time back for a website called thesenorita.com and then got place in my premier blog few months back while I was learning the initial phase of blogging! At that time very few people read it! so I am sharing this here with everyone!! )

अल्फाज़!! ... ( एक नई शुरुआत..)

पिछली रात की वोह रूहानी कशिश...
तेरे जिस्म में मेरी साँसों की वो लहर!
खिड़कियों से जर - जर बरसता...
कुदरत की उन बूंदों का वो कहर!

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(PS - A new start .... my very first post here at poetic cries .... In a language that I almost never liked when I was in school... No not sanskrit, I Hated it... here I have mentioned the word "never like"....

But then again in life .... you never know when this "never" ends out of sudden.... :) Uncertainty & exploration in new avenues is what makes it worth living!

5 STARS AND TWO THUMPS UP! - 2

The second award of this series goes to Kajal aka The Pink Orchid's Blog... "AN UNKNOWN QUEST"
Nothing less than an extravaganza! Her blog screams the story of its success within its very first impression!! with around 150 plus followers and average 80-85 comments per post! This blog has redefined the parameters of appreciation In its 5 month lifetime. A real treat of all senses, with various write ups on human relations, Poetry and other scribbles of her heart! MY PERSONAL FAVORITE AMONGST his posts are the works written under the labels “Him N Her” and “dedication”!!

somebody who writes with a pure motive and honesty is well noticed and appreciated by everyone. The various awards under the belt of kajal are a true example of this! 100 posts down!! each one no less then brilliant!!

HIGHLY RECOMMENDED! - http://lifeofthepinkorchid.blogspot.com

GOD BLESS YA! keep up the good work! kajal... many more to come your way , I am sure of that! till then, this one is for you!! take it away!! :) hugs!

Learn from the temptations of life!!

ROBERT FROST defined life in 3 words... “IT GOES ON”

I think...

Most complex problems do have a solution. Every Question framed by a person can surely be answered by another person! Nothing is difficult! We consider it difficult and tough cos It is only that we don't
Attempt to think.... In the right direction!

Life is an lesson
you learn it all
when you are through!

Love is a journey
which never
gets completed In life!

Lust is sin
for those who
haven't been in love!

Desire is a need
that no lust can
fulfill or satisfy!

Satisfaction is a
dream of impossibility
for victims of ambitions!

Impossibility in ventures
are seen by those...
who haven't encountered...
ambitions, satisfaction, desire, Lust, Love... Life!

Everything thats worthy in life is irresistible!

Everything thats irresistible,

teaches you , never to give up

In the form of Its Never ending tempt!

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