Monday, February 23, 2009

SOUL SEARCH !!


sense and maturity once attained will never leave you, childhood which once leaves you never comes back”

regretting had become a habit,I'm possibly seeking the answer to the dilemma that exactly what I'm constantly regretting. All I know is that there is something! Right there, well known yet so unknown, deep down within my soul.

Life is a constant journey of moving ahead with only one stable ingredient and that is “change”. To change is an inevitable law of nature, the indispensable existence of living, the invisible rule of life. We all change, without notice, without planning, without care! It is this possible change at the right time at the right place that can lead you to the paths of success, as well as the vice versa.

Some grow by age... some by time... some by actions. There is a right time to grow up, the word “right” has no possible definite definition here!

The biggest mistake of one's life is to grow up at the wrong time, the wrong time here means too early or too late! In my case, it was definitely wrong time, too too early!

Have you heard the song “where are you”, by Britney Spears? It talks about searching the essence of someone who had left! There is something or someone that I am searching, but what is it or who it is, I have no clue! :(


calling out your name

your face is everywhere

i'm reaching out to u, to find that your not there

i wake up every night to see the state i'm in

it's like an endless part i never seem to win

i can't go on as long as i believe

can't let go what i keep wondering

where are u now?

what have u found?

where is your haeart when i'm not around

where are u now, u've got to let me know

so i can let u go

i can hear your voice

the ring of yesterday

it seems so close to me

yet so far way

i should let it out

to say wats left of me

and close the doors of doubt

revive my dignity

but i can't go on as i long as i believe

can't let go what i keep wondering

where are u now?

what have u found?

where is your heart when i'm not around

tell me, where are u now, so i can let u go

i should let it out

it's time to let u go

i just want to know

where are u now?

what have u found?

where is your heart when i'm not around?




Sunday, February 15, 2009

THE ENIGMA OF JANIS JOPLIN!

"On stage I make love to twenty five thousand people; and then I go home alone." -Janis Joplin

INTRODUCTION TO JANIS JOPLIN

The most creative people that ever inhabited this society of ours had most often been summed up in a tragic death! They came, they conquer and in the end flamed in their own blaze! One such person was 'janis'.She lived fast and died young, an American icon and souvenir of the 1960s. Janis Joplin (1943 - 1970) was one of the most popular and influential female singers to emerge from the West Coast "counterculture" that thrived in the mid- to late-1960s. Her compelling stage and recording persona effectively transcended any regional boundaries. Her trademark raucous performing presence, combined with the raw emotion conveyed in her bluesy singing style and her unconventional but trend-setting and highly personal taste in fashion, captivated a national audience who sensed both her toughness and vulnerability and, in turn, embraced her without condition. Joplin, who was given to emotional excess and susceptible to unhealthy indulgence, passed away at the height of her fame.

THE PASSION FOR MUSIC and INSPIRATIONS & ASSOCIATIONS, The Rise ...

The initial period of Janis at her home was not at peace! She ran away from her home at an age of 17, to mark her own destiny after a series of clashes with her family who failed to understand her. A typical non-conformist, Joplin rejected traditional roles and expected behavior, and fell in with a group of like-minded, rebellious peers. While rejecting social norms of her community, she embraced causes such as equal rights and identified strongly with what was then termed the "beatnik” culture. Her interests included poetry and music, particularly jazz and blues. As is often the case with individuals who march to the cadences of a different drummer, however, Joplin often was overwhelmed by a sense of alienation and she suffered bouts of depression - feelings that she'd battle throughout her relatively short life.

The greatest white female rock singer of the 1960s, Janis Joplin was also a great blues singer, making her material her own with her wailing, raspy, supercharged emotional delivery. First rising to stardom as the front woman for San Francisco psychedelic band Big Brother & The Holding Company, she left the group in the late '60s for a brief and uneven (though commercially successful) career as a solo artist. Although she wasn't always supplied with the best material or most sympathetic musicians, her best recordings, with both Big Brother and on her own, are some of the most exciting performances of her era. She also did much to redefine the role of women in rock with her assertive, sexually forthright persona and raunchy, electrifying on-stage presence. Eventually, and predictably, the band broke up. Big Brother, with Joplin, made its final appearances together in December 1968, even as Cheap Thrills remained at the top of the charts and national audiences were just getting to know the group. The drink and the drugs began affecting both the performing and personal relationships. More significantly, however, the personal dynamics within the band were similar to those within a relationship or marriage that nears its end when one partner achieves greater success than the other. There was a widening gulf between Joplin and the rest of Big Brother. Albin recalled for Rolling Stone what is was like: "The kind of performance she would put out would be a different trip than the band's. I'd say it was a star trip, where she related to the audience like she was the only one on the stage, and not relating to us at all."

But to many observers, it did not appear that Joplin was on a ego trip. Rather, she simply outgrew the group. Big Brother was considered a good band that became a great band with Janis Joplin. The prevailing opinion became that the band was sloppy and informal, and Joplin was way out of its class.


ONE kind of an artist, always lonely... the drug addiction, the depression ... and the death(not the fall)

Joplin died of a heroin overdose in a Los Angeles hotel in 1970, two weeks after the death of fellow rock star Jimi Hendrix. For years, Joplin's life had been a roller coaster of drug addiction, alcoholism, and volatile personal relationships, documented in several biographies. Musically, however, things were on the upswing shortly before her death, as she assembled a better, more versatile backing outfit, the Full Tilt Boogie Band, for her final album, Pearl. Joplin was sometimes criticized for screeching at the expense of subtlety, but Pearl was solid evidence of her growth as a mature, diverse stylist who could handle blues, soul, and folk-rock.

Her rise was very fast and dramatic. With success came the usual pressures that would sink many a rock and roll band: ego conflicts, hurt feelings and the increased drug and alcohol use that often accompanied increased income. Joplin, with her fragile emotional state, was particularly susceptible to the entrapments of stardom. She reportedly used liquor and heroin to help ease the pain of a loneliness that never seemed to go away, even before an audience of adoring fans. She was never able to completely free herself from the lure of drugs, though, or her continuing affection for alcohol, and this resulted in her sudden death from an accidental overdose in a Hollywood motel in October 1970.

Joplin's body was found hours after she died, making it a sad and lonely death, all the more perplexing because of the affection she easily attracted both from her listening audience, fellow professionals, family and close friends. She was just 27 years old

The Pearl album was released posthumously several months later, becoming one of the best-selling albums of 1971. It held the number-one spot on the Billboard charts for nine weeks. The single released from the album, "Me and Bobby McGee," also reached number one.


SOME MEMORIES NEVER FADE, some tunes are never lost by the test of time... some voices were so brilliant that they will live on forever...

Joplin was a pioneer in the male dominated rock music scene of the late 1960s, influencing generations of musicians to come. Stevie Nicks commented that after seeing Joplin perform, "I knew that a little bit of my destiny had changed. I would search to find that connection that I had seen between Janis and her audience. In a blink of an eye she changed my life.

"Don't compromise yourself. You are all you've got." -Janis Joplin(Born: January 19, 1943 : Died: October 04, 1970)

Her enigma lives on... in her voice... in her songs... in my words!






Thursday, February 5, 2009

LYRICS THAT TALKS TO ME WHEN I AM SAD


Once again writing a post on certain lyrics of a song! Sometimes in life, You just feel like running away from circumstances, running away from where you are... that happens exactly when you know what mistakes you did in the past, for which you are suffering excessively in your present!

Rock had been a classy genre of English music, with extreme passion on skills, metals and drowsy and strong vocals, the extremism of creativity, the best for most! A partial genre of rock is “Alternative”, the modern day rock band “linkin park” is a typical example of such music! I came across their album “meteora” in 2005 and since that time, this particular track had been my one of all time favorite not because of the musical creativity involved in it, which also is brilliant but more because of its immensely meaningful lyrics! Love to hear it time and again whenever I am in a mood to analyze some fatal mistakes of my past! Seems that some part of my soul is captured in its lyrics!


It's easier to run!!
Replacing this pain with something numb!!
It's so much easier to go,
Than face all this pain here all alone!!
Something has been taken...
From deep inside of me!
A secret I've kept locked away...
No one can ever see...
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away!!
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they've played...;



If I could change I would

Take back the pain I would

Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could

Stand up and take the blame I would

If I could take all the shame to the grave I would


It’s easier to run...
Replacing this pain with something more!
It’s so much easier to go...
Than face all this pain here all alone!!
Sometimes I remember...
The darkness of my past ,
Bringing back these memories...
I wish I didn't have!!
Sometimes I think of letting go...
And never looking back,
And never moving forward so...
There would never be a past!!

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel so misplaced
Is so much simpler than change

Its easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
Its so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

It’s easier to run
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made
It’s easier to go
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave