JUST THINKING ABOUT YOU

When you are not here,
I think of you!
More than words can say...
More than one can ever imagine!!

Its that very rare moment,
when all one wants...
Is just one thing; That very person!
My multiple other dreams disappear.

Life submits all its glory,
for the pleasure of your wait.
Happiness and joys seldom noticed,
passing unattended through heart's gate.

How can someone miss somebody,
just the way I do!
Yes! That somebody is you,
I hope someday you will get the clue.

The need for you has surpassed my wants,
every breath desires your presence...
everyone surrounding me is giving a taunt,
My focus and gestures losing sense!

The irony of the day is,
I know someday you will be here...
Then too you will not be there,
My needs will still starve for your care!

Cos when you will be here,
I will still be just thinking of you...
You will still be just my obsession
Your presence,worthy site! But You, still in my blues!

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PULKIT TIWARI
28,January,2009
11:55 A.M.

EVERY TEAR HAS ITS OWN STORY!!

Beyond every tear is not just pain, but a chain of painful events, perhaps at times... painful memories!Submitting to the faith of tears one can encounter numerous phases in a single cry, starts with a regret and eventually ends at relief! Behind every tear, there is a story that needs to be told, there are words that desires to be heard, there is a voice that someone needs to listen...

Its not just an expression but a monotonic agony, a surrender to life's toughness, may be an admission of one's sins or the regression of our faults! Have you ever thought, how much does a silent tear says?

Crying and moaning can be expressive, but not the tear... it just falls, at the instance of its fall, it says a story! A story that only those eyes know from where it emerges, a story that only heart knows from where it travels to the eyes... a story full of emotions, depicting mostly tragic and rarely happiness in its fall. Yes , every tear says a lot.

Tears reveals the hidden truth of god's glory that pleasure is often a visitant; but pain cling cruelly to us. Yes its rightly said that, For all the happiness mankind can gain... it is not in pleasure, but in rest from pain. At the end of pain, at its very tormenting peak comes the tears... for some, this peak comes pretty soon, for some it comes after a long time, but it surely comes! And in that moment of agony, one needs someone, one needs something , may be a shoulder to hang... may be a helping hand, and unbearable the need becomes, no matter whomsoever you talk to, not matter how so ever you think, there comes a time when you just need to cry... thats where the story of tears starts. Then on... you bleed from eyes, searching for solace and tears narrates the story once again and you listen to it, ashamed, sad and broken... perhaps shattered! Then the story ends, there is a bliss at its epilogue... a sudden encounter with soul, your soul, you!

You,submitting to destiny, closes your eyes... wishing this all could end this very moment! But thats the actual beauty of life... stories never end, they just takes a pause and then continuous till forever, always! Some stories that means the most, some stories where words are not relevant, some stories told, heard, known to/for/by you and just you! Some stories that belongs to every tear of yours, yes! Every tear has a tale... that one can never forget!

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PULKIT
23^rd January 2009,
1:45 A.M

THE SUN IS STILL BURNING!!

Emerged victorious from the struggle of the night,
the sun is still burning!
The world engulfs the warmth of its light,
but the sun is still burning!

Waves above on our heads with its might,
gives everyone pleasure and itself sacrifice
flowers blossom in its bright sunlight,
unnoticed it heals pains without a price!

Ashes of tormented dreams everywhere sworn,
unsuccessful aspirations! Untamed imaginations.
Choked on neck by the strength of dawn!
Nothing more but Immense pain of unjust expectations.

It cries for help but no one listens!
The poets that waked up with its rays,
sadly ignores its silent glistens.
Writes poetry on evening's praise!

Its there alone surrounded with wind,
the same one from which he saved the world...
throughout day without a grind!
nobody observes its falling blood.

It is the people for whom he fought,
that sleeps through the pleasant dreams.
when he gets strangulated with night's sword
ditcher is everyone from beloved stream.

Moaning and crying, setting to death...
the sun is still burning!
It loved you in its every breath,
but the sun is still burning!

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PULKIT
(15th january,2009,6:15 pm)

3 NOVELS IN 10 DAYS! BOOKS review!

From the duration from 4^th January to 14^th January 2009! I had my winter breaks, I took a break from my blogging and social networking sites in this period as was a little upset and a little ill. Meanwhile laying inside the blanket whole day, I engrossed myself up with three books! All Indian modern day current national bestsellers! Similar theme, romantic genre but different styles as well as approach and expression! All had their turn ons and turn offs. Three debut authors!

1 Anything for you, ma'am by Tushar raheja

(an IITian's love story)

I would rate this book as 7.5 on a scale of 10! It started off well, somewhere became really slow in between! Humor and pranks were not as good as that of the FPS(five point someone by Chetan Bhagat),a landmark in these campus books! Special highlight for me was the approach of the lead male character! His enthusiasm throughout the journey for his true love! The belief and faith in each other! The worth appreciating gesture of choosing long term better girl over short term date catches!

It could have been a little more pacer and thus lost the battle somewhere in between in comparison to FPS! Then too for the first time debut author Tushar! I would recommend you to read it once atleast if possible.

2 TRUST ME by Rajashree

(All men are bastards)

A high 9 for this and two thumps up! Very fast! Refreshing cos its out of campus yet equally humorous one! Paro, the central character has an honest approach of thinking! Positive end brings ample smiles on my face,something that wasn't expected :) characterization is very good! Story and theme could have been a little more complicated! The slang language reminds me of the classic “The Shantaram”, by Gregory David Roberts! The shooting sequences are hilarious and the line to line conversations are fast, interesting and makes it a worth read till the end without a lull in between! Awesome! Must read for everyone who loves to laugh and specially for those who thinks negativity of bad elements in metro life cannot be narrated lively and humorously! Rajashree slaps their faces and makes you laugh throughout her brilliant work!

3 Of Course I Love You..! TILL I FIND SOMEONE BETTER by Durjoy Dutta and Maanvi Ahuja!

(Love quest of a DCE'ite[Delhi College of Engineering] ending on An SRCC[Shri Ram College of Commerce] girl after many relationship experiences and their eventual chain of events)

well above average 8.5! Initially I was pissed off on Deb for being such a ridiculous and unarranged human being! Physical descriptions seemed to be forced in to create at an initial reading buzz in the starting pages! As the story moves, scenes become more realistic and appealing, even the physical ones seems a need for the manuscript... I literally fell in love with the utmost honesty and came to a conclusion that there are many other guys,like this Deb around me in my real life, but they are all pretensions and wanna be cool guys while this one is a real straight forward 'life as it comes' guy! His thought process remained the same throughout, humor was never missing whenever things started to get a little dull! But overall it was very fast! Best one ever read till date on narration of Delhi's night life! A must read for everyone who is in love with exploration of messed up life cos not everyone can live it :) yet its great fun to read! Loved the conclusive last quarter of book! Long live the bond of Maanvi and Durjoy, brilliantly coordinated work! One time read for sure!

WINNING THE ANGER WITHIN YOU!

Have you ever been under regret for something that you said while you were angry? I mean does it happen most of the times when you lose your temper and lands up at hurting someone in a way in which you never meant by heart? Every normal living being will surely lose temper and become angry at some point of time in life! No matter how patient one can be, but its in our hormones to become angry at something or the other and one just can't deny it.

The damage that exchange of harsh words can cause to a relationship is more than any other possible happening, and no matter how tactful one can be but to stay polite and diplomatic in honest anger is simply not possible. Meditation, deep breathing and exhalation diverting techniques are some classy ways to reduce the slang that one can speak while being angry. It also depends on one's overall behavior and the cause of getting angry. Most of the times when my friends and family show anger on me, they eventually lands up few positions of respect below of where they originally were, after the patch up! And when I show anger on friends, I spill poison and use extremely harsh words and lands up on broken friendships most of the times! I know its not just me but a lot of us, who don't suffer from short temper, but rarely when they get angry they show extreme temper! There by I would like to draw forth certain conclusions that I had come across.
Ӂ Never forget these -
l When a human being is angry, his eyes gets closed and his vocal chords gets excessively and unnecessarily opened up.
l The actual meaning of being angry on someone is to give the punishment of his mistaken deeds to one's own self.
l Anger always starts with foolishness and ends at regret.
l Whatever you say in anger turns opposite on you and comes back to you surely at some point of time in the end.
l A person is not tired in a full day of work, the way he gets in a single hour of being in anger.
l A person becomes deaf as an ocean and furiously blind as fire when he is angry.
l Anger throws wit, tact and manners out of the door and locks it till one becomes stable again.

When one is extremely angry at something, one should practice silence! Absence of speech is the true voice of the god within you when you are in anger, its the superior most language in such a state. In cases when you ought to speak then speak as less as possible; Where one word is enough, avoid using two.
Win anger by love; vice by virtue; greed by charity and dishonesty by truth!